sometime i wish, somehow i'll know what's happening in that world where i must have to go!
what is death? it’s one of my favorite thinking when I feel lonely… death is loneliness… absolute loneliness! The day before yesterday I saw someone known to me passed away. I was thinking when walking with the funeral procession to the graveyard… I have the same destiny! It’s being said that spirit never dies. So how I am going to exist with only that spirit? I can’t imagine… but it’s reality that people will forget me as I’ve already forgotten many of my dearest persons. People like me who believe in god always pray a ‘peaceful’ life after the death. I don’t know what the word ‘peaceful’ means here. Is it something like tolerable loneliness?
Saturday, September 05, 2009 | 01:05
each of these poster is like an example of perfection. salute to those designers... you are something!
you can find all the posters through this link!
i was looking for some illustrations, posters… some old things. then i got the fifa world cup’s posters of all the previous years from the fifa website… these are wonderful. i always found myself so backdated comparing with the people rest of the world and time. i was thinking even if i were asked to design such a poster, i am sure i’ll not even able to reach the standard of the oldest one. people in 1930 were smarter than me!
Monday, August 31, 2009 | 00:41
it’s really important to have some stories in life of being blessed… it’s needed to make someone feel lucky. i should be thankful – my life is full of such stories… sometime i really feel that i am here all because of my fortune – actually i don’t deserve all these things… that also frustrating! when i try to foresight my future, i can’t breathe… it seems more complicated… more heart breaking. i don’t know why but i just can’t find any good up there. now days i feel pain all around my brain. i know some other of my friends with the same problem and i think it’s a common rising problem of people of my age. few days ago at a certain moment i was dying for a place to let my sight vanished… a place to stand for few moments motionless. but i’ve felt very sorry to found that there is actually not such a single place in this city. i don’t know why i am still living… it shouldn’t be a life where there is no good ahead. i never wanted to see me so hopeless…
Sunday, August 23, 2009 | 21:02
it’s very bad time… in every way. i can’t explain it and i can’t hold it. sometime it seems i am making it worst… why i am not ignoring it?
i was talking with one of my friend:
helal: wat u think abt nature:
me: i wish to die when i found it very beautiful
h: wat da definition of death to u?
m: the deepest sleep… i felt it sometime – forgetting about my existence… as if i am nothing
h: if u blv in religion – its not like tht – death is something different
m: i know that… but i have some other thinking – for bad the sleep is full of bad dreams – and for good… it’s painless
h: only romantic ppl speak like this – its not true – incorrect hypothesis – bad dreams and even pain vary among ppl – its all about how you preserve ur doings – because – dreams are projected from ur memory cell – if u can forget… dreams are always painless – some ppl even dont dream anything
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h: death – some ppl await death
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h: ppl die in some cases – even if they can take breathe
death is to me, the termination of some state
1. careness for anything/anybody
2. urge for any expected incident to be occurred
3. charm of life
m: well said – i agree
h: lol – and ppl expect death in some cases (except humaiyan the great)
1. when he/she finds no way out
2. when he/she cant tolerate the insult
3. when he/she loses the most precious thing(local idea) of his/her life
locality means the limitation of knowledge – wat he thinks true in local can be false in global – so as human being most of the time cant see the life as whole – his thoughts are limited
m: i don’t know so many things… but i am finding some similarities with my thinking
h: because in knowledge, i live in the same domain – so there must be similarities
m: to me… it probably could be an exit of the pain i am having now
Monday, August 03, 2009 | 00:48
my mom said the day i was born was the 8th long day the sun wasn’t seen. it was raining and raining… all through the days and nights. may be that’s why i like rain. last year it was raining the same way and that was one of the most memorable rainy story of my life. i wanted it same way this year too. though it was raining in the last evening but now there is no sign. in the rainy time i was on my way to uttara and i was thinking about this writing with a thought of very first memory of mine! how many days i’ve already passed from my life time? i guess it’s the bigger half of all. if i compare, there are lot to be done yet. if not, life is easy… just start counting the other days.
Monday, June 29, 2009 | 02:39
summer :: rainy season :: nature
first of all i’d like to add three of my recent works which i’ve done as my academic projects… as i’ve promised in my last post that i’ll let you know some updates about my work. well, i believe i am a good worker. so if you ask me about that, it’s normally a positive answer. i still have some running projects in my hand which i know will be appreciated. but i could find a gap somewhere in myself which really rising some question ahead me. what’s the problem with me? i always dream about a simple life… ‘simple but valuable’… at least valuable to me. but… i could find lots of ‘but’ which i don’t like. i don’t want to see me confused…
Monday, June 15, 2009 | 02:22
this post should be published earlier of this year as this was mostly written on 29 december of last year…
This is going to be the last post of the year and I was thinking about the whole year when writing it. The first thought that came to my mind is I am getting closer to a destination… this is weird thinking but obvious… I’ll die! I could remember one of my childhood friends who got sick and died within 24 hours before starting any serious treatment. I often remember him and still can’t believe though it happened 10 years before. Two weeks ago another known face disappeared though as far I remember I never talked with him. But after getting the news I can’t forget the face. And lastly, one of my uncles died last Monday who was one of most talented but has been treated as ‘wasted talent’… that’s a big story. So I am thinking about my death. What probably could happen then? I don’t know and I can’t guess anything but I am thinking lot about it…
Last Friday on my way back to home I was thinking and found myself so happy. 2008 should be said as a year of achievement… I’ve learned lot of things. I did some freelance works those probably mentionable. I did 2 big print design works for care Bangladesh by the first half of the year. On the second half I got the daily star website project which was a really new experience for me. As regular job in ebizzsol I have worked with several design projects within this year…like [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8], [9], [10] and many more…
Before everything one thing is so important… the saddest part of life is to let a wrong person knows that you love her. I wish that’d be a life long lesson for me.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 | 01:53
I can see the season changing…
I was thinking to write something as I think always. Sometime it happens like a fountain… words start coming… I just need to move my fingers. Who invented the keyboard first? The best thing of writing on a keyboard is you don’t have to bother what you are going to write. Well, I think my subject wasn’t ‘writing on a keyboard’. …So I was thinking to write something. It’s such a long time I didn’t write anything. now I am counting… how did I pass my time? Today, it was raining in the evening. It’s the first heavy rain of the year for this city. So it has feel outside that something has washed away and if I look through that window I have to reconsider my last comment “I can see the season changing when I look through the window. I can feel it sometime when I walk under the sun… everything getting so harsh… even me as well…”
One more thing, whenever I saw other blogs, I found many useful things like some technical tips or something that might help with your works. But I am not sure… is there anything useful here… in describing my crazy thoughts? Well, I think better if I share some of my experiences. Now I am working with a project of redesigning country’s most popular newspaper website and as well thinking to redesign lifearoundme.com too. So let me finish these jobs. I have some stories to tell you…