This time I became sure that mountains are beautiful during the rainy season. Everything seems clean and fresh that time though leaches could suck your blood. Its winter and the weather are dry and rough. We went through the same foot prints those we drew on last May [ read the previous story ]. But this time we were in a small group with less team spirit and less glamor. I had to fight lot to manage the time. I keep recalling my memories all through the way. We reached the boga lake by 29 December evening. We were prepared to face a hard cold but the weather was much warmer than the city. The home where we lived this time was a cool place than last time. It was very comfortable in every way. On 30 December some of our friend went to the peak of keokradong. We were out of all networks and that was the biggest relaxation. No regular schedule, no hurry, no boss, no computer, no mobile … drinking lake water, having tasteless same food in breakfast, lunch, dinner with a great eagerness, trying to enjoy every single moment. On 31, the sun set with great sorrow from sky of boga lake area. A deadly road accident happened on the way to boga lake, took a death toll of 4 persons. At the earlier night someone brought a dead cobra. He said it attacked him on the way so that he killed it. It brought lot of excitement to the tribal and as well as the tourists. They cooked the cobra and many of our friends took it with a great excitement. We set a fire and roasted a goat. On the first moment of New Year everyone start dancing, most of drunk till throat. The night grew older and moon started shining from behind the big mountains. That was the nicest part of the whole tour.

Next morning we got up with a spirit to walk 17 km way back. I walked the same way last time but this time it was too hard. The sun was burning all the time. Once it happened we finished the last drop of the water and had to walk another hour to find a water source. All tiredness came zero when I took a long bath in the river of sangu. It was a biggest achievement this time. Ruma bazaar is too known to us and we spend few useless hours there. Some of us wanted to get back earlier to banadarban. But most of us liked to stay motionless. 2 January, we start our journey back to Dhaka. There was a huge traffic jam on the way. It was a great time… but not so great as it was before.

Ok, I’ve learnt few things,

• >> He is a foolish who pretends to be a good, sober person all the time.
• >> ‘Out of sight out mind’ isn’t always true. Sometime you should go far to measure the depth of your sight.

Sometime I find some contradiction in myself. I always pretend as a simple person with simple thinking… doesn’t keep any big ambition… always try for those things which are available around me. But practically often I find myself very complicated which either I can’t support or ignore. It’s a very painful experience. From my very childhood I grew up with a dream- one day I’ll run away from here and hide myself in an unreachable place… which I even don’t know. So I don’t keep a good plan about my life or I didn’t try to be an important person to my family. But now sometime I realize I am getting involved with some serious things that I never wanted to. I want to blame someone but don’t get any except the time. I used to recite the sentence ‘time will say’ but never looked so deeply into it. It’s a very rude truth…

sometime my own attitude scared me. it seems completely insane. i loose my control and can’t realize actually what i am doing or thinking or even talking. i don’t know why this happen. today the day started with a crazy behavior of mine. i really couldn’t understand why did i act like this. its hurting me all through the day. i could hear the news on tv… the same news… the cyclone disaster!


last night i took a sudden decision of sit for the GRE test. today i got admitted to a coaching center for the preparation and i went there to attend the first class. i was very much hungry and i went to dominus pizza to have something before my class. i had few minutes and i asked the dominus person to serve me something ready made. he gave me a burger with french fries. it was ok… i took a glass of drinks too. after finishing the food i went to the counter to pay the bill. 230 taka! i was astonished! how it could be happen? i asked again. the waiter came and say ‘the burger costs 175 taka and the drinks 55 taka’. it sounds funny to me… i felt everything- everyone is making fun with me. then i came to the class. i think you could guess what happened there. there were no teacher or student. the front desk person told me that i got a wrong information. actually the class suppose to be happen tomorrow morning. i made a call one of my friend. its was early night, so i wanted to spend the time with any friend. i called once, twice… no reply. i walked alone for an hour, stand motionless beside the road, see people, running bus… passing me…