life around me

Sometime I find some contradiction in myself. I always pretend as a simple person with simple thinking… doesn’t keep any big ambition… always try for those things which are available around me. But practically often I find myself very complicated which either I can’t support or ignore. It’s a very painful experience. From my very childhood I grew up with a dream- one day I’ll run away from here and hide myself in an unreachable place… which I even don’t know. So I don’t keep a good plan about my life or I didn’t try to be an important person to my family. But now sometime I realize I am getting involved with some serious things that I never wanted to. I want to blame someone but don’t get any except the time. I used to recite the sentence ‘time will say’ but never looked so deeply into it. It’s a very rude truth…