Sometime I find some contradiction in myself. I always pretend as a simple person with simple thinking… doesn’t keep any big ambition… always try for those things which are available around me. But practically often I find myself very complicated which either I can’t support or ignore. It’s a very painful experience. From my very childhood I grew up with a dream- one day I’ll run away from here and hide myself in an unreachable place… which I even don’t know. So I don’t keep a good plan about my life or I didn’t try to be an important person to my family. But now sometime I realize I am getting involved with some serious things that I never wanted to. I want to blame someone but don’t get any except the time. I used to recite the sentence ‘time will say’ but never looked so deeply into it. It’s a very rude truth…

The drawings you can see on the picture are drawn by my nephew except the first one of the second row (its mine; I’ve shown him as reference). He is 5 years old and just learned how to add numbers. He was talking lot during drawing. On the second tree he put three different colors and he was explaining me why he put those colors. He told me he doesn’t like to put only green colors, its boring. Then he put colors on the next two trees and he almost avoid the green color. I thought about myself. I am sure, I am yet not that much smart…

‘morning shows the day’ it’s a good proverb to me. everyday when I set my first step, i try to imagine the whole day and the good thing is it make some senses. i could imagine a rough sketch of the whole day at the very beginning. often it doesn’t match and mostly it happen with the good things, like sometime when I feel bore and everything miserable, a surprising call come from someone which brings some happiness… may be very small but important. sometime the negative things also happen. but it’s a chain reaction; like good brings the good and the bad brings the bad… sunday is always an unpredictable day for me. it’s the weekend for me and sometime i feel unlucky for that. all other of my friends got friday as weekend. so mostly i have to pass a lonely day and i became habituate enjoying the loneliness and normally i don’t want to keep any schedule for this day. it’s a full free day and i want to do whatever comes to my mind. sometime i pass the day just as a movie day; sometime i go to see my grandma, sometime meet some friends or sometime motionless- only concentrate on myself, try to hear what it wants to say. one of my friends called me few minutes ago and told me that today i am having a very good mood. it’s true I think…

Sunday, home, 22:35

i’ve published a post in my previous blog about ‘love around me’ few months ago. it’s still one of my best writing. i yet couldn’t able to say that girl about what i feel. so love is still the biggest mystery to me. to be honest, i spend time everyday in thinking about this girl… though i am sure she isn’t concern about it at all and now when i am writing this line it seems very silly, but its damn true. may be that’s the finest part of love… its silly but no way to overlook. sometime i find myself so unlucky… again so lucky. love could be a problem but we dare to face that problem…

these days i try to study when i travel by a rickshaw. because there are huge things to study but i don’t get much time for that. today i was on the way to office and i was busy with the GRE word list. suddenly a brown leaf fallen on my papers. i took the leaf in my bag and brought it to office, took a photograph and now going to publish it.

i am trying to show this site to many people because i really enjoyed working with this project. the blog page is yet not completed. i hope you can see this page with some nice post within a very short time. josh da gave me all the opportunities to make the site better. first it was a challenge for me to plan this site. i am not so good in this sector. some of my friends criticized it’s too whitish surface. but i like it. my main point of concentration was to make the site easy accessible for the users and i’ve tried my best to give it a simple ordinary look. your constructive comment will help me to go further. thank you.