my mom said the day i was born was the 8th long day the sun wasn’t seen. it was raining and raining… all through the days and nights. may be that’s why i like rain. last year it was raining the same way and that was one of the most memorable rainy story of my life. i wanted it same way this year too. though it was raining in the last evening but now there is no sign. in the rainy time i was on my way to uttara and i was thinking about this writing with a thought of very first memory of mine! how many days i’ve already passed from my life time? i guess it’s the bigger half of all. if i compare, there are lot to be done yet. if not, life is easy… just start counting the other days.

first of all i’d like to add three of my recent works which i’ve done as my academic projects… as i’ve promised in my last post that i’ll let you know some updates about my work. well, i believe i am a good worker. so if you ask me about that, it’s normally a positive answer. i still have some running projects in my hand which i know will be appreciated. but i could find a gap somewhere in myself which really rising some question ahead me. what’s the problem with me? i always dream about a simple life… ’simple but valuable’… at least valuable to me. but… i could find lots of ‘but’ which i don’t like. i don’t want to see me confused…

This site was inactive for few weeks as it was hacked by someone!!! That was really surprising. I thought hacking happens with the famous things only and I never thought me so famous. But I think I am really thankful to this person who hacked my website and made me feel that I am someone… ha ha ha.

Well, if I count the differences those came to my life within the time this site was inactive… I should say – yes, I’ve got a massive change in my mind. I’ve reinvented something from around me which seems really extraordinary to me. Something like ‘…etodin chilo sadharon tarmajhe ekjon jake aj boro alada lage’… ha ha ha.

About my work: I’ve completed designing a blog for the daily star which hopefully going to be live within few days… I am happy for that. Few more projects are also coming where I was involved with the designing part… I’ll let you know when they will be live… and as well as I am working with this website… I want to give it a new look and add some new features.

I was thinking to write something as I think always. Sometime it happens like a fountain… words start coming… I just need to move my fingers. Who invented the keyboard first? The best thing of writing on a keyboard is you don’t have to bother what you are going to write. Well, I think my subject wasn’t ‘writing on a keyboard’. …So I was thinking to write something. It’s such a long time I didn’t write anything. now I am counting… how did I pass my time? Today, it was raining in the evening. It’s the first heavy rain of the year for this city. So it has feel outside that something has washed away and if I look through that window I have to reconsider my last comment “I can see the season changing when I look through the window. I can feel it sometime when I walk under the sun… everything getting so harsh… even me as well…”

One more thing, whenever I saw other blogs, I found many useful things like some technical tips or something that might help with your works. But I am not sure… is there anything useful here… in describing my crazy thoughts? Well, I think better if I share some of my experiences. Now I am working with a project of redesigning country’s most popular newspaper website and as well thinking to redesign lifearoundme.com too. So let me finish these jobs. I have some stories to tell you…

i was thinking of this day for last few days… what i supposed to do. then i got a music and listening it too much. it actually makes no sense but i can’t avoid thinking…

this post should be published earlier of this year as this was mostly written on 29 december of last year…

This is going to be the last post of the year and I was thinking about the whole year when writing it. The first thought that came to my mind is I am getting closer to a destination… this is weird thinking but obvious… I’ll die! I could remember one of my childhood friends who got sick and died within 24 hours before starting any serious treatment. I often remember him and still can’t believe though it happened 10 years before. Two weeks ago another known face disappeared though as far I remember I never talked with him. But after getting the news I can’t forget the face. And lastly, one of my uncles died last Monday who was one of most talented but has been treated as ‘wasted talent’… that’s a big story. So I am thinking about my death. What probably could happen then? I don’t know and I can’t guess anything but I am thinking lot about it…

Last Friday on my way back to home I was thinking and found myself so happy. 2008 should be said as a year of achievement… I’ve learned lot of things. I did some freelance works those probably mentionable. I did 2 big print design works for care Bangladesh by the first half of the year. On the second half I got the daily star website project which was a really new experience for me. As regular job in ebizzsol I have worked with several design projects within this year…like [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8], [9], [10] and many more…

Before everything one thing is so important… the saddest part of life is to let a wrong person knows that you love her. I wish that’d be a life long lesson for me.

photograph by palash. few more photos here

I didn’t go so closer to the sea before. Its something I can’t tell in words. I had some very weird feelings… I was thinking I am too close to meet my destination… it’s a chance. I was shouting to the roaring waves… take me with you. I don’t know or even can’t imagine for how long it’s jumping like a white horse… or the noises are expression of joy or anger. It’s monotonous but I think I can pass years just with watching and listening. After the sun set… i found myself alone… I can’t explain… its heart breaking but charming… that some kind of sadness you can enjoy. On the dark night with ‘one sky stars’ the sea seems really furious. Its dark but the sea is visible with reflection of stars. The next day when we were moving to another island ‘chera dwip’ by boat, the first realization that came to my mind is ‘I am nothing’… but when the boat start moving I realize may be ‘I am something’ as a part of whole mankind.

The Beach of Saint martin Island is something very different than the cox’s bazaar or chittagong. It was my first time I went there and definitely I was bit over excited. The photo I’ve added with this post got a weird inspiration for me. The person on the photo is me and whenever I see it I mumble ‘do it and die’… that’s a happy ending!

One thing should be noted… ‘do it and die’ is a warning message from one of my friend for those who are in love or in dream of love…